Productive AND fun?

I had a great day today. I was super productive at work (well I think anyways…)

BUT, BUT

The most important moment was definitely the evening. I finally saw Lindsey Stirling!!! For the third time but omg was she just as amazing as she could be! Of course she told us we were the best and we, as a good audience, just screamed our lungs out for the rest of the concert. And frankly, she deserved those screams. For those of you who don’t know her, she’s worth checking out. She’s a “dancing violinist” from the US and she’s very talented.

Here’s a song she made for a Disney movie with Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness:

You can understand why I’m a big fan? She spoke about one of her band members who died last fall and it was very inspiring. Sad of course, but the way she spoke about it was like a revelation.

As you know I haven’t been feeling too well lately. She made me realize that I need to keep fighting harder than I have been. She talked about how she was gratefulness and how she was emotionally stunted after his death and had to learn to open herself again. I think I need to learn to be grateful too. For my family and my friends, for my life in general.

It’s difficult to accept that I have suicidal ideation but that I don’t have to act on it. If I only accepted the situation and the emotions that I feel maybe I’d be more grateful of what I have?

What are you grateful for?

Getting better or worse

via Daily Prompt: Waiting

Waiting is hard. I hate doing it. I think most people do. You don’t know what to do with yourself, you check your Facebook or twitter feed every 3 seconds and sadly nothing new’s happened. That’s why I play Dots. It passes the time.

But that’s not the point of this post. This post is about waiting to get better. I have this side of me that absolutely refuses to accept that sometimes things don’t go the way I’d wish. And when things go wrong, I get impatient with myself. I don’t want all of these bad feelings, I want things to get better now. But obviously that’s not how life goes. So I get, well, worse.

Waiting. I have to learn how to do it. And wait to get better. Because I will.

And I leave you with this song that I can’t stop listening to lately:

Watermelon

My friend posted this video on my timeline and I thought it was hilarious, so I’m sharing it with you guys. After all, isn’t she right? I don’t dress like a “typical” woman and I yet I still love women, and I love women in dresses too! Also, IMHO, she gets extra points for using epic sax guy.

Go check out her channel, it’s under the name hartbeat and is full of goodies.

For those of you who don’t know, epic sax guy is actually a member of Sunstroke Project. His very well known number is the solo portion of a song named Run Away from the 2010 Eurovision song contest (for Moldova).